Faith did not cause my Charlie to ride off on the
Honda that cold winter night and not return.
It did not cause my last baby to die because he was too small to live outside my womb.
It did not take Bob from me in the prime of his life....or my puppy to run under the wheels of my car...
And it certainly did not bring that evil man into our home to wreak havoc on all our lives.
None of these things were caused by a Deity who does not care.
And I won't buy into the cynicism that claims that an omnipotent God, a loving God would keep these things from happening.
And so, it is not easy to define Faith, in light of these flaws in my life.
But Faith is there...
I know, because Fear is not. Something happens to me when after the first realization that something is real, I can calm my reality and move from a sometimes catatonic state to one that allows me to function.
Prayer helps...it is my constant "go to" , my only defense against anguish that has followed each and every one of these instances.
We are living in what the Bible says are the End Times....
I'm not sure if that is actually happening right now, but there will certainly be more of the horrors that we have experienced thus far.
Will I see the End in my lifetime? I don't know..... I do know that my faith will be tested, is being tested right now. My greatest concern is, naturally, for my family.....what will they experience?
If I had the power to do anything right now, it would be to infuse in them the belief that in the true End, everything will be alright......
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